Hard lessons

My church had a interim pastor for about a year.  He was a great teacher, and I probably learned more that I had for the longest time.  One of the best messages he gave was about dealing with when your feelings are hurt by someone.  There are three things you shouldn't do when you get your feelings hurt.

1. Don't curse it (the person who hurt your feelings)
2. Don't rehearse it (retell the story of how you have been wronged umpteen times)
3. Don't nurse it (feel sorry for yourself about how you were treated unfairly)

As I was sitting there, I was thinking, "Well that's so not even me, because I just don't care what people think."  Ha.  The VERY next day someone did something that hurt me very badly, and it took all summer long for me to get to the place where I could even be in the same room with her.  We did finally have a conversation and I apologized for harboring a grudge and the things I had said (believe you me, it was NO picnic for this proud girl).

A while back, I was handed a big disappointment.  Big.  I was much more upset about it than I let on to anyone (must maintain laissez-faire attitude at all costs).  I had to revisit my notes from that message because I was having trouble letting go of it and having a good attitude even though my head knew the decision was a blessing in disguise.  It took quite a few prayerful commutes to get to where I am right now.  The place where I know the right decision was made.  Because really, praying for God's will just as long as it is the same as yours isn't how it works.  

Who needs snow?

The winter that wasn't has its benefits.  Like today, it is 11:56...almost noon, and I am still in my sweats.  I haven't showered.  What have I done?  Well, to be quite honest...not much (two loads of laundry, tending the chickens and catering to the Clover who is still at home sick).  Why am I still in my sweats?  Did I take another day to stay home with the littlest monkey?  No.  No I did not.  My district embeds snow make-up days into the calendar, and with the "winter" we are having, we haven't had any snowdays.  So we automatically get the days that were embedded as we come upon them.  Part of me wishes that the district would just take the days off from the end of the year, but the other part of me (the part that is lazy) is really enjoying the benefits of a day without the shoveling.

Maybe it's me...

 

Recently, I've been having trouble using my filter (you know, the thing that keeps you from saying whatever comes to mind).  Like yesterday.  The Clover was sick so we went to the doctor where she was diagnosed with bronchitis (I had a whole freak out after the visit when she had a temperature of 104.7 after she started the antibiotics, but I digress).  We had the prescription sent to Wal-Mart (only because we were out of cat food, too).  I checked in to pick it up, and the clerk said, "It won't be ready for 20 minutes."  I was all like, "Okay, we have shopping to do, so no big deal."  We walked around the store for about 30 minutes, picking up everything we needed (and a few things we didn't because it was Wal-Mart afterall).  I went back to the pharmacy and was the first in line.  The clerk said, "I'm really sorry, but it will be another 10 minutes at least."  I was still ok (but the Clover was fading fast), so I gave them 15 minutes.  The Clover was coughing her head off but wanted to go back to toys  because I kind of rushed her through the toy section and she wanted to choose something small before, but didn't get a chance.  We came back to the window, once again.  This time we were behind 9 other people.  We waited and waited and waited (how hard is it to have your insurance card and proper paperwork?).  When we finally got to the window the same clerk said, "I have to go mix it...just a minute."  I was trying not to fume because it had been an hour.  FINALLY, she gave me the medicine and said, "Sorry about the wait."  I smiled sweetly and replied, "Don't worry, it isn't your fault this pharmacy is grossly mismanaged." And then I walked away. 

Today, I met up with a different clerk while I was trying to get cash without going to the ATM.  I asked for a 10, 5 and 5 ones.  She acted like I was asking her to do something difficult.  She didn't have any fives so I asked if she could give me 10 ones.  She actually rolled her eyes and huffed.  After she reluctantly gave me the cash, I said, "I sure hope your day gets better."  Very passive-aggressivey of me, I know. 

These two instances lead me to believe that maybe it's not everyone else.  Maybe it's me and I'm the one who doesn't play well with others.

Electrical Fire?

Sorry kids (and hopeful adults in my building), no fire evacuation for you today, it was just the stench put off by the oven in my classroom.  Once a month, the teacher down the way brings her life skills class over to my room to make birthday cupcakes for her class.  Why my room, you ask?  Because my classroom is the FACS turned Autism Resource classroom.  Yes, I still have all the cabinets.  Yes, I still have 4 mini kitchens.  Yes, I still have two stoves (only one is hooked to electricity, though).  Yes, there is a tremendous amount of wasted space.  There are pluses and minuses to this classroom.  The major minus to me is the stove.  My principal has thanked me for being flexible with its use, but when it is used boy oh boy does it stink.  So, I put on my friendly face and allow for it to be used for baking.  My direct supervisor has talked to the office about the odor and the overstimulation it causes, but as far as I knew no one had noticed other than my guys.  So today, after the cupcakes came out of the oven (we pulled them early before they could burn to a crisp) imagine my surprise when the janitor and two administrators came into the room to check and see if something was burning.  They asked me if it always made "that smell" to which I replied, "Yes, it does." They seemed surprised about how much it stinks and my vice-principal said, "We'll see if we can do something about that."  I don't know exactly what that means, but I'm hoping it means an edict that there will be no more baking for the remainder of the year.

Friend Makin' Monday

Sneaker Teacher had this on her blog andso I thought I would  it looked like fun, give it a try.

 

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

1. Are you a Mac or PC?  PC!  I'm sure if I took the time to learn something new, it would be fine.
2. Do you paint your own nails?  Yes, when they are actually painted.
3. Beach or mountains? Beach
4. What’s the title of the book you’re currently reading? The Bible to my monkeys each night as well as Pride and Prejudice (it's my favorite go-to).
5. Do you dance?  I love to dance with my husband.  Sometimes we crank up the volume and two-step around the living room (much to the chagrin of the Cubscout).
6. CNN or Fox News? I like the news and not too much commentary so Shepard Smith on Fox. 
7. Do you ride a bicycle?  Not well. 
8. Do you get a yearly flu shot? No, I hate shots.
9. Best movie you’ve seen in 2012? I watched Morning Glory on Encore (does that count?).  That's the only movie I've seen so far this year.  I probably will only see one in the theater and it will probably be whatever the monkeys have to see. 
10. Do you prefer to workout at home or at the gym? At the gym (by gym, I mean weightroom while the Cubscout practices).
11. Last airport you were in?  Chicago O'Hare. 
12. Married or single? Married to someone who knows me better than I know me :) 
13. iPhone or Android? Android
14. Do you prefer to be in pictures or taking pictures? Taking pictures (sometimes, it looks like I wasn't on the vacation with the family because I'm not in any of the shots). 
15. Favorite brand of sneakers?  Adidas (they fit my foot just right)
16. Do you like snow?  Not really, and the way our schedule works, there are snowdays built into the schedule.  So in the winter, if we don't use the snowday, we get a random day off (like this Friday).
17. Do you have/want to have kids?  Two (Cub and Clover).
18. Summer or Winter? Summer. No school, no on the go lifestyle. 
19. Do you know how to swim? Yes, but I won't swim out into deep water...too scary. 
20. Do you prefer to shop in store or online?  In the store.  I like to look at all the options and try things on.